OH OH OH THIS IS EVERYTHING the jagged edges the softness sandpapered away without vern as buffer... lost it at this part btw:

They fall into bed. Or Chan pushes Seungkwan into the bed and climbs on top of him. Even in surrender, their hands are unkind. Too much teeth, and not enough licks, but it’s home. Part of Seungkwan is finally home.

Grief tastes like Seungkwan’s mouth, and Chan opens up to get his fill.

also: seungkwan saying hansol's name in bed was just like GOD the fresh slap in the face of loss!!! thank u for writing this